magic!

Whatever it is you want, however you want to have it, no matter why you want to have it, shelly, you can have it faster if you can first be happy without it.

The Universe

Desire and happiness, shelly, need not be mutually exclusive; they actually work best together.

Elle = L

best: good mood all day, talking to the woman next to me  on the plane, brucelee's welcome home ceremony.

best bought: breakfast of cashews, banana, odwalla power c and a tea latte! 

why tomorrow will be amazing... b/c i've had rainbow connection stuck in my head all day and i don't think it's going anywhere. plus I'm booking my trip tomorrow. 

the lovers, the dreamers, and me.

best: rainbow connection at piano bar
best: heart growing realizing amazing people in my life
best: compliments on my jeans... i never get great butt compliments! Yay Levis!
best: really seeing clearly for the first time in years. what i want. what i need... 

no worsts can even try tonight.


listen to rainbow connection and then even TRY to get cranky.

nobody walks in LA

best: getting permission to go on a trip...

worst: american idol. i hate this show. so embarrassing. 

 

best bought: ehhh. everything today was questionable... bottle of water.

worst bought: this is boring when i am trying to save money. i don't want to keep a food log here. No comment.

today in LA

best: being honest with a friend

worst: having to merchandise dumb furniture accessories

best bought: great penne a la vodka and shrimp

worst bought: caesar salad with tofu... tofu- usually a good idea- tastes BAD on a caesar salad. 

shhhhh.

saw this quote on a friend's tumblr and laughed because it exactly the opposite of what is true for me...

"it's better to say too much than never to say what you need to say" 

My current direction is to TRY to say as little as possible and maybe in that way learn more about what i FEEL. There is a yoga retreat I am looking at going to in Spain that has "Silence practice" which is an entire 24 hour period that no one is allowed to speak. You still, eat, meditate, walk around etc but all without using any words... this is what they say about silence practice:

"The practice of Silence (Mauna) has been around for thousands years. It is one of the most powerful tools of transformation because it simply brings you to you more than anything else.

Silence is an immense teacher in itself.

Your vital energy is a current that flows through your body-mind system 24 hours. When outside stimulus are consciously left out, that same energy starts to work in a different way. When you consciously decide to save yourself from talking, looking out, judging what you see, what you hear, thinking about the next meeting, stop the flow of endless connection with the outside and others, the Silence teacher starts to influence you. The energy that is saved from engaging with others turns into a healing force.

Silence periods can release more emotional tensions and past related issues that almost any other practice. Silence increases inner awareness and the mind becomes more present, greatly enhancing the ability to absorb yoga and experience meditation."

They don't recommend doing silence practice without guidance... probably because you might lose your mind. Anyway, 'nough said. ha. 

today+to do= yeah!

1. Taxes!...done!

2. Clean!...done!

3. Laundry!...need to fold!

4. Grocery shopping!...ha, why go buy groc when i leave for LA in the am?

5. Naps! ...not yet.

bonus:

6. Find yoga retreat to book for vacation!...working on it!